Facing my Fears

Happy Monday, friends!

To start off this week, I wanted to share something with you guys I will be starting on that is a HUGE step outside my comfort zone…

I am starting to follow a template for muscle gain, which means:

1. I’m not following a diet to lose weight like most do (although I have days I seriously want to)🙅🏻‍♀️

2. I am focusing on gaining muscle and continuing to get stronger. 💪🏻

3. I have to eat a lot more food 😭

Some of you may have heard of RP Strength, a.k.a., Renaissance Periodization. 

( pic source: Twitter )

RP Strength is highly known in the fitness community: Crossfit, bodybuilding, figure competitions, and weight loss/muscle gain.

RP Strength gives you the option of choosing a weight/fat loss template, or a muscle gain template. You give them some info about yourself and your goals, and they give you a detailed template to follow.

Before I go on anymore, I am not telling you to buy this template. It’s not for everyone. But if you know my background story of going through an eating disorder and not eating enough and over exercising, then you may understand how big of a deal this is for me.

Even now, I still have days I struggle with body image and weight…and for me it’s something I will always have to learn to work through.

Since starting Crossfit in January, I have definitely gotten stronger and have been able to do things I didn’t think I would ever be able to do. I got 2 strict pull ups just the other day…my first back to back pull-ups!

Throughout my Crossfit journey so far, my weight has stayed about the same as it’s been for the last few years, but my body composition has changed some. While I have loved this, I also have always had a big fear of gaining weight and getting too big.

Thats my ultimate fear…weight gain. After so many years of trying to stay/get slim and fit, and it being embedded in my head to “be skinny”, it was always instant fear for me to gain weight.

What I Love about this template is that they push eating whole, non processed foods…which is best for everyone to follow, really. Something else I love about it, is they tell me about how much of protein, carbs and fats to have at each meal. I know there are some days I’m not eating enough to fuel me, or I know when I didn’t have enough carbs before a workout.

I’m always one to focus on healthy eating, and I think most people know that. But sometimes your girl has bad days, or weeks, where I feel my nutrition is completely off track and I genuinely get down about it.

Since I am passionate about Crossfit and want to be a better athlete, I am really wanting to dial in my nutrition more…not just for my health, but performance as well. Of course, I’m going to be keeping my balance in there because I do enjoy pizza, ice cream, burgers, etc. ❤️

If you signed up to receive weekly emails from me (on the right side on my home page), then you know this last week I sent an email out explaining how I don’t like the word “diet”, and now no one diet fits all.

You must do what is right for YOU. Everyone is on a different journey with their health and fitness. For me, I am at a place I want to continue to get stronger. I’m not obsessed with being skinny like I used to be. I’m focused on being healthy and the best version of ME possible.

Lets face it, this girl needs help with her food too sometimes! I am human just like you. I love helping people with food and fitness, but the trainer needs training too!

Thats what I want to get across to you today. I don’t want you to think, “I can’t believe she’s following a diet”, or think, “she’s telling us no diet fits all but she’s following this”…

I will be eating healthy, staying balanced, and working on ME. Now, I want you to focus on being the best version of YOU possible. 😊

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